From the album wasteland
This is about devotion so extreme it becomes self-destruction. The speaker insists she was active, powerful, moving mountains for her king, but everything she describes is loss of control: breathing water, jeopardizing vision, losing her mind. The wasteland isn't something he made. It's what happens when you give someone so much power you forget how to exist without them.
Drown in emotions / Got me to breathe in water
She frames drowning as if she chose it, like breathing water was devotion instead of suffocation. The passive construction hides what's happening. She didn't move mountains because she wanted to. He got her to.
No one could tell me I was just idling
The defensiveness gives it away. Someone did tell her she was wasting herself, and she's still arguing with them. The song catalogs complete surrender, then insists she had agency. She's trying to convince herself.
Lovin' your eyes / I'm jeopardizing my own vision
This might be the most direct line in the song. She knows looking at him means she can't see herself clearly. The velvet imagery makes it sound luxurious, but jeopardizing vision is just another word for going blind.
I lost control over my own mind / I know that it takes time / Reclaiming my soul again
First moment she admits the truth without metaphor. Not 'he made me lose control' but 'I lost control.' The shift to present tense in 'reclaiming' means she's still there, still trying to leave. The wasteland is where she's stuck, not where he left her.
My soul is empty, so is my room, it's where you have left me / In your wasteland
The possessive 'your' does all the work. She's calling it his wasteland to avoid saying she built it herself. The empty room means she's physically alone, but the song never says he's with someone else or even gone. The absence is emotional. He might still be right there.
The song wants to be about what he did to her, but it keeps slipping into what she did to herself. By the end, she's trying to reclaim her soul, but she hasn't left the room yet. The wasteland is hers because she's the one still standing in it.