From the album Both Of Us
This is self-awareness weaponized as sabotage. Arin Ray frames pushing someone away as protection, but he is really protecting himself from the possibility that he might actually get better and still lose them. The honesty is a performance of brokenness that keeps intimacy at arm's length.
Been a little selfish / Don't know why I lead you on / Thinking you could be the one
He admits the manipulation and then immediately retreats behind confusion. The 'don't know why' undercuts the accountability he just claimed. It is confession as evasion.
I'm in therapy trying to fix me
Mentioned twice, framed as evidence he is working on himself. But it also functions as proof he is too damaged right now, buying time while appearing to do the work. Therapy becomes the excuse, not the solution.
Maybe you should run / If I were you, I'd go far
This sounds like care, but it shifts responsibility entirely onto her. He is telling her to leave so he does not have to actually end it. The choice to stay becomes her fault.
I don't wanna ruin both of us / I'm warning you I'm not the one to trust
The phrase 'both of us' does heavy lifting. It suggests mutual destruction, like he is saving her when he is really just pre-empting his own failure. Warning someone you are untrustworthy is not the same as changing.
I would stay, but I don't wanna ruin both of us
The 'I would stay' lands like an excuse dressed as noble restraint. He wants credit for the impulse to stay without actually risking it. The song ends with him leaving while framing it as sacrifice.
The most honest line might be 'been a little selfish.' Everything after that is him proving it while pretending otherwise. This is not a breakup song. It is a song about why he will always find a reason to leave before someone sees him get better and still choose to go.