From the album All I Did Was Dream of You (feat. The Marías) - Single
This is about wanting someone so badly you stop caring whether it's actually good for you. The dream state isn't romantic escape, it's dissociation. The whole song is someone choosing the fantasy over facing what's real.
All I did was dream of you / Swimming in my mind again / Wanting to waste time again
That verb matters. Not spend time. Waste it. She knows this is unproductive obsession, but the dream feels better than whatever is waiting outside of it.
All I wanted was to see / Everything you see in me / Everything I wanna be, high at sunrise
She wants to become the version of herself he sees. That's not love, that's erasure. The 'high at sunrise' repeats like sedation, like she needs to stay altered to make this work.
Nightmares always feel like this / They swallow me / But I let go
The perspective shift cuts through the haze. What beabadoobee calls a dream, María calls a nightmare. Same relationship, different level of denial.
Stay with me for a while / Now it's inside of the dark / Instead, I love in denial
Three admissions stacked on top of each other. She knows it's temporary, knows it's unhealthy, knows she's lying to herself. She does it anyway.
Stay / Like the summer breeze / Don't go / Don't go
Begging someone to stay 'like the summer breeze' is asking for something that by definition leaves. The song ends mid-plea because there's no resolution, just the loop starting over.
This reminds me of Mazzy Star if Hope Sandoval had grown up on bedroom pop instead of slowcore. The whole thing floats, but it's not dreamy, it's dissociative. You walk away knowing exactly how this ends and also knowing she's going to let it happen anyway.