From the album Everything Glows
This is about someone choosing self-harm as routine maintenance. The speaker has turned missing someone into a recreational activity, insisting they're fine while describing behaviors that sound like a mental health crisis. They've replaced the relationship with the act of grieving it.
Teardrops on fresh ink / Your wine stains on my sink
Fresh ink suggests a recent letter or note, something actively written. But the wine stains stay. The song opens by showing you someone who acts like they're moving forward while refusing to clean up evidence of the past.
Making someone new / Touch me like you
This might be the most honest line in the song. The new person is an actor in a script written for someone else. Not even pretending they matter on their own terms.
I miss you, and it hurts, but it puts me at ease
The phrase 'puts me at ease' doing heavy lifting here. Pain as comfort. Hurt as the only reliable feeling left. The speaker has mistaken familiar suffering for home.
Looking at these photographs until they make me nauseous / I swear that I don't want you back
Making yourself sick counts as proof of something, apparently. The insistence 'I don't want you back' rings hollow when the entire song is about wanting them back in the only way available: as a ghost you can control.
The speaker would be shocked to learn that 'a little masochistic' and 'a bit nostalgic' are wildly gentle terms for someone living in active refusal to heal. This is not casual reminiscing. This is building a shrine and calling it a phase.