From the album Your Day Will Come
This is a song about someone who thought they'd recovered from seeing an ex, only to realize mid-thought that they're still completely unhinged about it. The opening claims grounding—'the earth got back into me'—but by the end Shane Lavers is fantasizing about reaching through a phone to hit someone, which is maybe the least grounded thing you can say.
Cutting it to time would have thought I took too much / Riding through your city, yeah, I thought I saw you
The song starts mid-panic, already defensive about how this looks from the outside. 'Would have thought I took too much' isn't an admission—it's preemptive damage control, like he's narrating his own unraveling before anyone else can call it out.
I thought I would lose, but the earth got back into me
This line is supposed to signal recovery, like he found his footing again. But the very next verse proves it's a lie—the earth didn't get back into him, he's still falling through himself. He mistakes a moment of clarity for lasting stability.
Break up with the lie down / Doing what they told you
The song never explains what 'the lie' actually is, and that refusal to clarify feels intentional. It's a command that sounds like wisdom but collapses under scrutiny—maybe because the real lie is the claim he's okay at all.
Yeah, breathing through the speakers / I would smack you through the phone
Breathing through speakers is disembodied, technological distance. Smacking someone through a phone is the opposite—violent, impossible contact. He wants both at once: to stay removed and to reach through the screen, which is the tension of obsessing over someone online. I'm not sure he knows how contradictory this is.
This song ends before it resolves anything, which might be the most honest thing about it. Lavers narrates his own instability in real time, claiming recovery while actively unraveling. The lie he tells himself is that he ever stopped falling.