From the album Michelle Pfeiffer (feat. lil aaron)
This is a song about someone who knows leaving is the only way to survive but treats that knowledge like a future-tense hypothetical they'll never actually act on. She keeps explaining why she has to go while describing staying, turning departure into another obsession she rehearses instead of performs. The whole song is her saying 'if I don't leave we'll destroy each other' while making zero actual moves toward the door.
J'aime ce que je ressens quand tu me manques / Une obsession maladive que j'essaie toujours de prouver
She doesn't miss the person. She likes the feeling of missing them, which turns longing into a hobby she's perfecting. That 'sick obsession I keep trying to prove' line means she's treating heartbreak like a skill she needs witnesses for.
Je déteste te laisser partir, mais si je ne le fais pas / Alors nous savons tous les deux / Que je nous enterrerai vivants
She frames leaving as something she hates doing but must do, except the verb tense never shifts to past or present action. It stays locked in 'if I don't,' meaning the threat of mutual destruction becomes the reason to stay thinking about leaving instead of actually leaving.
Je conduis les yeux fermés, j'espère avoir un accident / Peut-être que nous pourrions être ensemble dans une autre vie?
He's literally describing suicidal ideation but treating it like a scheduling problem. The move from 'I hope I crash' to 'maybe another timeline' means he's already skipped past fixing this life and gone straight to fantasy escape routes.
La ruine totale idolâtrée / Mais nos enfants s'en sortiront
That phrase 'total ruin idolized' is maybe the most honest thing she's written. They worship their own destruction, treat it like a religion. Then she pivots to 'but our kids will be fine,' which is how people justify staying in exactly the situation that traumatized them.
Je nous enterrerai vivants, nourris par la nuit / Comme des fantômes
The repetition confirms this isn't a warning anymore. It's the plan. She's describing what will happen if she doesn't leave while actively choosing not to leave, which means burial isn't the consequence she's trying to avoid but the intimacy she's signing up for.
The song's in French but the grammar is the same one Ethel Cain always uses. She can describe the harm in perfect detail but can't write a sentence where she actually stops it. The whole track is her explaining why staying will kill them both while describing staying anyway, which makes the title make sense. Michelle Pfeiffer in what, Scarface? Where everyone dies and nobody leaves until it's too late.