From the album Punish - Single
This is a song about someone who's convinced herself that enduring violence is her natural state, treating self-destruction as something her body was built to perform rather than something being done to her. She frames surrender as biology and harm as love, turning abuse into a taxonomic category she was born into instead of a choice someone else is making.
Whatever's wrong with me / I will take to bed / I give in so easy
The speaker treats damage like an illness she's managing alone, something private she handles by withdrawing. 'I give in so easy' sounds like self-critique but functions as inevitability — she's describing a trait, not a series of decisions.
He was a natural Plauché, saying, 'You won't forget this'
Gary Plauché murdered his son's abuser on live TV, which makes the reference unstable — is 'he' the protector or the threat? The line 'You won't forget this' could be a father's promise of safety or an abuser's warning, and the song refuses to clarify which, leaving the speaker trapped between rescue and violence that might be the same thing.
Only God knows, only God would believe / That I was an angel, but they made me leave
She claims innocence in past tense only, like it's a status she lost access to rather than something taken from her. 'They made me leave' is the only moment of external blame in the entire song, and even here it's vague enough that she could be talking about expulsion from grace or just describing why she's no longer the person she was.
I am punished by love / I am punished by love
Love appears only as the punishing force, never as something she wants or receives. The phrasing is passive construction that names love as the actor and herself as the object, but she still calls it love, still uses the word that should mean care, not harm.
The most dangerous move in the song is how it makes violence sound like weather — 'It has always been this way' repeated twice, turning trauma into geology. She's not describing what's happening to her. She's describing what she is, which means there's nothing to leave and no one to blame.