From the album Big Flower Light Go Boom
This is about the paralysis between knowing you need to reach out and actually doing it. Jamison builds the whole song around procrastination dressed up as thoughtfulness, where the question 'do you wanna talk about it?' becomes both an invitation and an avoidance tactic. The guardian of conscience keeps saying make the call, but instead he just walks around imagining future conversations that might never happen.
It was a full moon for a season / Then the moon was new / I had to step up on some ledge / To get a view of you
A full lunar cycle has passed and he is still just watching from a distance. The ledge suggests effort, but it is effort spent on observation, not connection.
And the guardian of conscience / Said 'Hey man you can make it new / Just get on the telephone / And you know what to do'
The advice is almost comically simple. Pick up the phone. The repetition across the song makes it clear he keeps hearing this advice and keeps not following it.
Do you wanna talk about it / With your mother and your friends? / I don't know but I do hope / That before the summer ends
He is imagining her telling other people about whatever rift exists between them. The 'I don't know but I do hope' is perfect anxiety logic, pre-rejecting himself while still hoping.
We can walk out somewhere there / Amongst the asters and the rue / In blossom and repair to a train car room
Rue the flower and rue the regret sitting right next to each other. He is sketching out an entire reconciliation fantasy complete with botanical details instead of just making the call.
By the end, the question has been asked so many times it stops sounding like an invitation and starts sounding like the thing he does instead of calling. The guardian of conscience keeps giving the same advice because nothing has changed. He is still walking around.