From the album My Body Isn't Ready - Single
This is about wanting someone while believing your body disqualifies you from being wanted back. The song frames physical self-consciousness as a barrier to connection, but the real trap is that the speaker has decided what the other person expects before ever testing it. Every refusal to show up is presented as protecting someone else from disappointment, when it's actually self-preservation dressed up as consideration.
It's the Fourth of July / My friends wanna catch the tide / How I wanna go, but I'll stay home
The Fourth of July is designed for visibility—fireworks, crowds, swimsuits. Staying home isn't about lacking desire. It's about refusing to be seen when being seen means being evaluated. The isolation is chosen but framed as inevitable.
Does she just like me for the things I do?
This line admits the fear underneath all of it: that people only tolerate you for utility, not presence. The speaker has compartmentalized themselves into 'what I do' versus 'what I am,' and they've decided the latter isn't enough. It's not clear anyone else made that distinction.
If I could crawl out of my own skin, would you let me in?
The hypothetical does two things at once. It names the fantasy of escaping the body entirely, but it also deflects—'would you let me in' assumes the barrier is external permission, not the speaker's refusal to show up. They want an invitation they'd still be too scared to accept.
If we could just be those kids again, maybe I could swim
Swimming is the song's image for participation—being in the tide, not watching from shore. Childhood isn't idealized for innocence but for a time before self-surveillance became constant. The 'maybe' is doing a lot of work. Even in fantasy, confidence isn't guaranteed.
The song's saddest trick is that the speaker genuinely believes they're being considerate by disappearing. They've convinced themselves that staying home is a gift to everyone else, when really it's just preemptive rejection dressed up as kindness. The body isn't the problem. The problem is the story they've built around it—a story where showing up incomplete is worse than not showing up at all.