From the album Wishbone Deluxe
This isn't about forgiveness. It's about needing the other person to show up and confirm they're suffering too before the narrator can move on. Every gesture toward letting go is actually a plea for mutual validation. Peace requires an audience.
It was a bad time, wouldn't go back / But memories of good times, they really last
The song claims to be done with the past in the first breath, then spends the rest of the runtime proving otherwise. Those good-time details (sweatshirt, primrose, hazel eyes) are so specific they're not memories anymore, they're still happening.
I know it's so low to hate you / For leaving without me / But why leave so quickly?
He calls his own anger 'low' but can't stop asking the questions that anger generates. The self-awareness doesn't change the feeling, it just makes him feel worse about still having it.
And you stood by the window, waiting / Like you were gonna say something / But you just walked away
This moment might be total invention — he has no way of knowing what the other person was thinking at the window. But he needs them to have hesitated, to have almost stayed, because a clean exit would mean he mattered less than he wants to believe.
I wanna watch you while the words come out your mouth / That you don't miss me like I know you miss me now
The fantasy isn't reconciliation, it's confrontation where the other person admits regret while he stays composed. But 'I know you miss me now' directly contradicts the earlier 'Do you miss me?' — certainty and doubt cycling in the same song because neither feeling resolves without the ex actually showing up.
I could make peace with it, finally sleep with it / Finally wish you the best
Wishing someone the best four times in one song means you haven't done it yet. The word 'finally' keeps pushing closure into the future tense, something that will happen after this imagined reunion, not now.
The song ends mid-sentence ('Finally wish you the—') because it can't finish what it's trying to say. Conan keeps rehearsing the speech he'd give if they met again, but the whole thing only works as a fantasy. Real closure would mean stopping before the last 'finally.'