From the album iloveitiloveitiloveit - Single
She claims to like being used because it gives her purpose, but the whole song is her actively choosing to go back. The compulsive repetition of 'I love it' doesn't sound liberated. It sounds like someone talking themselves into something they already know is bad for them, performing self-awareness to avoid admitting they're completely out of control.
I like being used, it means I have a purpose / It's the little things you do, at least you're being earnest
She frames passivity as intentional but immediately contradicts herself by praising his earnestness. If she actually wanted to be used, his sincerity wouldn't matter. She's already negotiating for something real underneath the dysfunction.
Let's let fate decide / Heads, we go to yours, tails, we go to mine
Fate doesn't decide anything here. She's already driving to his place. The coin flip is theater, a way to pretend the decision isn't hers when she's made it before she even flips.
I love it when we fight, and I like it when you're mean / We don't have to get into what that says about me, oh, shut it
The entire song IS getting into what this says about her. The 'oh, shut it' reads like she's telling herself to stop talking, but she can't. The deflection is the confession.
I'm a couple minutes out from relapsing / Is the key still under the mat?
She knows where the key is. She's been here before. The question isn't asking for information, it's asking if he still wants her to come, disguised as logistics. The word 'relapsing' does all the work, she knows this is an addiction, not a choice.
I only love it 'cause it's you
After spending the whole song insisting she loves the chaos itself, she admits it's him. The performance drops for one second. Everything before this was her trying to convince herself she's in control of something she'd do regardless.
The narrator thinks she's being clever and self-aware about her bad decisions. But the song's structure betrays her. The breathless, runaway energy, the way 'I love it' gets more frantic each time, the fact that she's already in the car while pretending fate is deciding, it all points to someone who has no idea how far gone they are. The last line is the only honest moment, and it's devastating because it arrives too late to change anything.