From the album Daughter from Hell
This is about wanting your partner to give you permission to leave by being worse. She lists six different reasons for breaking up in the bridge, but the real problem isn't lacking justification. It's that all her reasons make her the villain. He's too good, too forgiving, too adoring, and she resents him for it because it means she can't blame him for what she's about to do.
You called me your everything / And the pressure, I have to emphasize / Made our roof cave in
Being someone's everything isn't romantic here. It's suffocating. The pressure she's talking about isn't him asking for too much, it's her inability to be what he thinks she is.
You're too nice to me when I tell you things you don't wanna hear
This should be a compliment but it reads like an accusation. She's frustrated that he won't fight back, won't get mad, won't hand her the clean exit she needs.
If only it wasn't bad timing / If only I chose you and not me / If only you got disappointed / If only you didn't adore me
She cycles through every possible reason and none of them stick because they all boil down to the same thing: choosing herself feels selfish when he hasn't done anything wrong. The 'if only you got disappointed' line is maybe the most honest thing she says. She's begging him to mess up so she doesn't have to be the bad guy.
That's when I knew you'd probably sit there and take it / Well, that only makes me regret it
His patience isn't kindness to her anymore. It's a guilt trap. She knows he'll accept the breakup without a fight and that lack of resistance makes leaving feel even worse, not better.
If only I chose you and not me
This repeats twice in the outro and it's the only 'if only' that names what she's actually doing. Everything else deflects. This one admits the choice is hers and she's making it anyway.
The song never lands on a good reason because there isn't one that makes her look better. She's leaving someone who loves her well, and the only justification that holds is 'I chose me,' which she says twice at the end like she's trying to convince herself it's enough. It might be.